Have you ever heard of black christmas? I created this term for myself. Christmas is meant to be filled with love and joy. But why i dont feel that joy ? Whenever it is 1DEC i would be so energetic cos i know i would be planning what to buy for the people . But i have decided their gifts like yesterday . And i dont know what to do also . I have not decide what to buy for the guys . And i feel more and more empty as each day passes by and i am afraid of 2007 because it is the year of separation and beginning of a new chapter in my book . And i am afraid i am unable to accept what it is coming . How can i stop feeling this way ?

As christmas approaches, my world blackens . I am afraid . Really ! As all of you work i am left alone ..................................